Life is too short to have multiple web & social accounts. This serves as a node. A refuge, a distraction from unbearable meaninglessness of existence which I was lucky enough to become aware of in my teens. I must be some sort of an old soul. No, I'm not depressed, alltho' my pendulum swings towards the melancholic type, I love life. Very counter-intuitive, like everything in this realm we share.
Had to conclude that most people are not like that and that all the social guidance systems (ex. religion) must have been put in place for people who would lose their fucking shit and couldn't handle the thought. They need someone to hold their hand, tell them what to do. What to think, Obey, Just eat, Just do it, Like, Share, Follow, and inevitably stay behind. Having a nanny comes with a price. Oh and distractions, entertainment. We all need those. I'm also guilty of resorting to them. Because I'm wired this way, this inevitably marginalizes me and my day to day survival options. It also means I don't last long in authoritarian workplaces. People who fulfill "leading" positions in such environments are usually traumatized little children in adult bodies, taking out their frustrations on the world. The overlords, who I blame no more for thinking of the masses the way they do, like these types of people because they take orders like a dream and fulfill them without question. Moral or immoral.
I can't stand meetings about meetings. Pushing virtual zeros and ones with no means. Running around in a circle. Having to pretend to work and feeling terrible about it. No wonder my ship sailed towards jobs that either a robot could fulfill or self-employment. So predictable. People with close to zero talent but with willpower surpass 99.9% of talented folk.
Not being successful in this day and age is a good thing. That means I'm not willing to cutthroats and step on people to gain just an inch of privilege. Cain and Abel sort of thing.
Why Out Of Ocus and not Out Of Focus?! Because the latter was being held hostage by some domain-name tarr'ist. F-s given, NUN! We like people (lenses & domain names) for their faults. I mean character. I'm liking it this way more with every passing day.
So yeah, without boring you to death I'll try to wrap it up. I'm an 80's child, looking for answers. Nocturnal type. I honestly tried to force myself to be like normal people. Curiosity or my sedentary lifestyle is what will eventually "terminate" me. In the meantime, I try to experience what this simulation has to offer in the broadest spectrum.
I like to ask questions, learn, figure things out. I like people who keep their promises, show up on time. I don't trust people who touch monitor screens with their fingers when they point nor the ones who do fake smiles. I worked with both 3.5" and 8" floppy disks. You have to look those up in Wikipedia these days. So, yeah, I have a couple of winters behind my back.
We have no idea what gravity is, we can't define a field, don't know where we come from or where we are headed, whether this is real or not. What is real anyways? Define it. We can barely see a tiny slice of the electromagnetic spectrum. Hear just as little of the full audible frequency spectrum. I wonder if we're just an experiment. We are like Jon Snow, we know nothing.
All we have is stories.
If someone'd ax' what my favorite movies were, I'd say: Terminator 2, Dersu Uzala, 1984, Aliens & Predator series (pre 2000), Falling Down, Office Space, Back to the Future, Gremlins, The Sunset Limited, Beavis & Butthead, Californication, Black Mirror & Westworld series, Glass Tiger, Fabian Balint meets God, to name a few, but since nobody asked I won't tell you. Also, there's a few video game cinematics that capture human nature very well, like Blizzard's Diablo II opening cinematic (about power and corruption) or The Battle on the Amerigo from Starcraft, or the Brood War Intro. Pure Gold!
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