369 Demons

2020. Oct. 13 marks the first day of the battle against the reign of my inner bitch. I'll be posting an image every day (future self - "how naive I was") for the following 369 days. Have to switching things up a bit. Will be putting in at least 4 km-s of walking or some other form of physical activity. Goal is to form new habits. Put the gathered skill points in the perseverance skill tree. No matter the weather (oh boy). Let's see where this leads.

Also plan on changing my eating habits in the right direction. Test if no sugar, flour, really takes me to the wonderland of less weight, clear mind, like they claim it does. Have been intermittent fasting for quite some time now but with poor results. That alone proved not to be very effective in my case. Plus it seems unnatural.

Photos will be just random but if (by the end 10% of the images are not garbage), print("Sucess!").

My inner bitch is already furious. The discomfort, pain, cold, the effort, persistence, boredom, uncomfort. Weighin' in just for the record: 192 cm tall, 115 kg, age 36, BMI 30.9.

Alright, let's go! Mother-Fuckin' R.A.H.!! Bad days, character building days, I salute you!

365 photo project day001


I listen to people like David Goggins, Joe Rogan, Jose Luis Sanchez. Fat-shaming works. Just look at Mike Tyson's recent transformation. Comfort leads to misery, leads nowhere. Stillness is death.

Wish I took a knee and put this soul further up in the frame, more among the ship masts, avoid the distracting elements at the bottom of the frame.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



Banning Trichotomy has a side effect. Makes the falling of bombs inevitable. We are more than just body (hardware) and mind (software). We have a soul. Crossing that out also disregards morality. Thus', well just look around.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



Some days are easy.

(Fuji X-T1 & Leica Elmarit M 90mm f2.8)



Today was hard. Almost lost but eventually pushed through and it felt great. Was rewarded by seeing a thing we romanticize as a "falling star", but we know it is more likely some alien society's trash from lightyears away. It was puuurrty'.

(Fuji X-T1 & Vogitlander Ultron 28mm f2)



#PMMOTORAS. Model X for sale. Go figure. Lots of custom Harleys. I might be wrong, but the whole joint "smells" like broken dreams. The elderly Ford was awesome tho'. They had an equally fine Dodge truck before.

(Fuji X-T1 & Vogitlander Ultron 28mm f2)



Bear witness, "lowering the blinds", as seen from the "dark side". Should be livin' on the other side. I'm more of a sunset guy. Sunsets & window reflections, reflectin'...

(Fuji X-T1 & Leica Elmarit M 90mm f2.8)



The grind. Feels more like 14 days.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



I sheeeet you not. The ship's name was: Shetland. It said on the side, "Powered by Natural Gas." Ass gas? My jokes are a mess. Yes. I don't know about "clean" but it is energy alright'. You might say that I'm right. Rhyming aside, my feet need some rest, tomorrow is next. Oh boy... :P

(iPhone 7 Plus & Moondog Labs Anamorphic lens)


Constant change. I have yet to see a city with no construction of some sort going on all the fucking time.

(iPhone 7 Plus & Moondog Labs Anamorphic lens)



Double digits yo'. Order and anarchy. Seems like a month. I might have just found a way to expand time.

(Fuji X-T1 & Vogitlander Ultron 28mm f2)



This building with those dishes always reminds me of the Alien movie sequence where Bishop needs to crawl through those pipes to that building, (that this building reminds me of) in the storm to be able to call down a new bird. Has the same vibe. Missing the acid-spitting aliens tho'. Won't attempt further jokes that would only entertain me. End of transmission.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



This decommissioned (I think) crane is a landmark. As much as the X-T1 grew in me. I need a larger sensor. More depth. Bigger pixels, thus better low light performance.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



Use your demons as fuel. They feed the fire really well, well duuuh', they're demons. I really need to stop with these jokes. Wonder how the new fruitphone 12 pro-maxi-tuti-new-but-old-cuz-we-ran-out-of-ideas-a-long-time-ago's cameras would have handled these conditions.

(Apple iPhone 7 Plus)



Like these old factory buildings. The warm light cheering up the cold night. Insert more golden age thoughts here. Political correctness will come and go. This building will still stand.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



There is a biker working there. Art appreciator. Probably a good person. Rough on the outside. Forging and machining parts. Must be much more fulfilling versus meetings about meetings and PowerPoint presentations.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



A good thing up'in'ere is that you can propel yourself in nature really fast wherever you are under a very short time. These mossy forest branches always remind me of elk antlers for some reason.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



Analogy on how it feels when you emigrate, arrive in a new country and try to take root. One day at a time.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



Nature irons me out. Even if a 20kg two-year-old is hanging on my back. The good weight. I blame the constant fidgeting for not being level.

(Fuji X-T1 & Vogitlander Ultron 28mm f2)



Hi, my name I John Doe and I'm a coffeeholic. It really is a drug. Imagine if it was illegal and people protested for legalization. Legalize coffee!

(Fuji X-T1 & Vogitlander Ultron 28mm f2)



Talk about bringing a knife to a gunfight. Bringing an umbrella "against" Bergen-weather is much like that. No, on second thought it is more like bringing a knife to a full-on war with Gatling guns n'shit. Yeah. Much more along those lines.

(Apple iPhone 7 Plus)



There are quite a few cemeteries scattered in the city of Bergen. A bit strange considering the shit weather imposed general moral state of the population. I get the: we're mortal and it is good to see that on a daily basis approach but still. With such high suicide rates, one would think there'd be less of these, or at least further out of sigh on the peripheries. BTW, the sensor in the fruitphone xs is the closest to what the human eye can see in a night-time scenario. Minus the software smoothing / "beauty" filter heavily applied (especially) on the front-facing camera (that can't be turned off). #plasticskin. One always finds out about these issues AFTER the purchase. Sony is killin' it in the digital sensor space.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



Swoosh! I thought sub 10min/km nordic walking pace was impossible. Now on day 22, I think 8min/km pace is achievable. Looks like Wader in a hurry. No, that is not a cape. Yes, it was raining, obviously. Let me quote some statistics: "Bergen is considered the rainiest city in Europe". "On average, Bergen 'enjoys' 239 rainy days of the 365 days of the year". I can attest.

(Apple iPhone 7 Plus)



Handmade ceramic from our trip to Southern Italy, Puglia (where we longe back to ever since). The candle inside casts mesmerizing, moving shadows. Lingering, like the souls of our loved ones who passed away.

(Apple iPhone 7 Plus)



This was either something very long that was not tied down or the wrath of some sort of Greta type of character.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



When her date tells her he drives a 100K $ car and shows up with this. :) Gentle giants.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



When your parents use you to get rich or push a propaganda and you become the laughing stock of the world, a global meme. Nice parenting. Wonder if these kids ever realize later on in life what happened. Do they retaliate? There's a saying, you might be trough with the past but the past ain't through with you. Greta's parents, I salute you. How dare you?! :)

(Apple iPhone Xs)



Recording a rare sight in Bergen, when clouds give you a little window to the sky and you can actually see the stars, moon even. Casting a shadow on a chimney. Moon shadow. DAFUQ. Sony's tiny night vision sensor in a cellphone from 2018.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



As my fitness improves, a few kg-s dropped, my range and performance went up. Physical activity is a good antidote to low energy levels, anxiety, demons in general. Rainbows are ruined forever that's for sure. How much cooler is this type of graffiti vs those meaningless unreadable stains that dominate this art form? Self-expression is dangerous. One image a thousand words. Looks like forced positivity to me. Gender and species neutral. People are so confused. Seeing some color is much appreciated tho', especially up in'hia'. Quite a few Americans live here.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



Norwegians are fond of American cars. You could say they are collectors. Despite the horrendous import taxes. I guess some run out of money during the early stages of the, I'll get myself a piece of 'Murrica. Maybe they lose interest or maybe some other life-altering circumstances stop them in their tracks, like kids or something. If I'd be a car, the news of moving to Bergen would feel like a death sentence. Rain, salt, accelerated decay. This ain't no California. Sad sight.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



Life is so counter-intuitive. Sometimes being Negative is a Positive. Brain tickling was not fun or necessary. I could have given them a used tissue. I wonder if this was a test or did they implant something. Yeah, roll your eyes. I know. Anyways. Had to do it. Don't wanna' lose my job. Can't wait until some sort of vaccine or chip implant is mandatory in order to be able to be granted access to a supermarket to buy food and diapers. I for one am glad that COVID didn't cure everything. Influenza my old friend. Not that I missed you but I'm glad we could keep you. This trendy version of Covid cured so many things. Cancer, heart failure, car accidents, poor health and almost influenza too. This is a very dominant virus, this one. I'm waiting for the rest of the viruses to start protesting any time now. Equality among viruses would be nice, innit'?! At least equality of opportunity (not outcome). I wish the other viruses were equally represented and not let themselves be pushed around and used by this tyrant. Covid's privilege needs to be addressed. :P Non-Covid-virus lives matter!! Also, if this is a virus, why is it mandatory in some places to disinfect your hands? Alcohol only kills bacteria, not viruses. Also if this virus causes respiratory problems, why are masks mandatory? Don't mask further restrict and deteriorate the amount and chance of access to much needed fresh air? Why is re-inhaling used air from your lungs good for you again?! Also, why do we let this be done to us with a virus that has a 99.99% survival rate? I don't see the logic. I'm just asking for a friend.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



Regular night lamps are so overrated. Treat yourself to a horse-lamp why don't you?! Must be a conversation starter... about how your lack of taste or style. In a storefront tho' it serves well and draws attention. WTF is a horse doin' in a kitchen?!

(Apple iPhone Xs)



I'm not sayin' it's aliens, but it's aliens.

(Apple iPhone Xs)



Imperfections are easily approachable and relatable. Flawless things are suspicious and (unattainable). T'is what it 'tis. How u doin'?!

(Apple iPhone Xs)



This is getting really boring really fast. The weather doesn't help. I'm not a fuckin' toad. Don't know what to tell ya'. I'm not even at 10%. The "I wanna' quit", "this is useless" feelings are goin' up on the y-axes. The inner bitch is preparing for war. I guess he got the message that I ain't playin'. Didn't lose much weight but I'm already developing multiple personalities. Geeeez'. I guess not only drugs have side effects.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



There are a few exceptions when rainy clouds take a day off or something. If that day coincides with a day when one doesn't have to go to work, well, you get a taste of what it could be like, what it is like when the weather is normal. There is no good weather or bad weather, it is just weather. I just happen to like this type of weather better. Sure do appreciate these exceptions more since we live here. Reminds me of southern Italy tho', but the Scandinavian air, the sharp edges of the breeze bing you back to reality. Compared to the warm, silky, buttery breeze one can experience there. Compromises.

(Fuji X-T1 & Zeiss Sonnar 50mm f1.5 ZM)



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